It's Okay to NOT Have It All Figured Out!

Welcome back lively family! I have been super busy lately with new endeavors that I plan on sharing with you all in the near future. However, today I wanted to get a little personal with you all and let you in on some things going on in my mind that I feel are super important to share with the world because if even one person feels relief from reading this post, it's served its purpose.

This post isn't going to be my usual pretty, GIF filled experience. I really want to get raw and vulnerable with you all for my own necessary release of thought and emotion.

I'm not sure who needs to hear this but, it's okay to not have it all figured out just yet. It really doesn't matter how old you are or where you've been or where you're headed. Enjoy this beautiful journey called life, because you only get this one.

Recently, I feel like I've been carrying this weight on my shoulders. I've been feeling so scared, overwhelmed, and unsure of what my future holds for me. I remember when I was getting ready to graduate college and everyone was asking me the dreadful, "so what's next for you?" question. It honestly used to annoy me heavily because I had no idea and if I'm being honest I still don't, and that's okay.

In college I had my hands in a lot of different endeavors and always felt so passionate about what I was doing. I think since then I've been searching for something that sparks that flame in me again.

Do you remember being a child and people asking "what do you want to be when you grow up?" I remember wanting to be so many things. A dancer, a gymnast, a lawyer, the list goes on. But what I never actually realized is that those titles changed because I was changing. We are constantly evolving. Out with the old and in with the new whether we recognize it or not. So it's only natural that I'm unsure of who and what I want to be.

As I get older what I want to be holds no weight over what I want to feel. Something I love about this time we're living in is that how people feel matters more than anything. The focus our generation has on personal well-being and mental health is beautiful. It's been inspiring to watch this generation try to fight the patriarchy and change the norms that society has created for us over generations. We no longer care about the traditional styles of living in a house with a white picket fence, married by 30 with kids, and in what society would deem a 'successful' career. We're living for ourselves, starting our own business, feeding our own passions, and not allowing society to decide how we should live.

Recently I saw a post online that said "no matter which way you flip it, I don't dream of jobs" and I could not relate more to a statement at this point. I used to work 50+ hours a week and though I was making decent money, I was extremely unhappy. I felt like I was missing out on a lot of things and I didn't feel stimulated or motivated by my work. I'm not saying that I'll never have a job again but I don't ever want to feel like what I'm doing isn't serving my purpose.

So even though I'm struggling with conceptualizing what I want to 'be', I know exactly how I want to feel. I want to feel happy, stimulated, passionate, excited, inspired, loved. I want to know that I spent my life doing what I love and being around those who I love. I want to impact my community and the greater world around me to ensure all people feel they have a place here and that they are important. I may not have it all figured out just yet, but I will continue to remind myself that that is okay.

What I think is important is that we all be gentle with ourselves and one another. Remember that asking people questions about their next moves can be triggering and overwhelming for those of us who don't really know all the answers. No two people's journeys or timelines are the same. Never forget that not having all the answers isn't always a bad thing. Never stop discovering things about yourself. Never stop nurturing those passions that fuel your fire. Because it is okay to not have it all figured out! There is so much life to live, just make it one you look back on with pride.

Thank you for allowing me this space to be vulnerable with you. Writing this post really has allowed me to take a breath of fresh air and really release some emotions that have been bottled inside of me for some time now. I look forward to next time.

Until then,

Liv A Little ♡